When was the last time you had to do something really hard?
When you saw it coming, or if you saw it coming, what did you do?
Did you run from it?
Run to it face forward?
I’m a run from it girl myself. I tend to have a way about running from the hard stuff as fast as my legs can carry me, it’s a terrible habit. The irony is that I never really run from it. I just run so long so that I put it off. By the time it catches up with me (and it always does) I’m so worn out from the chase that now not only do I have to do the hard thing, but I have to do it absolutely worn out exhausted and emotionally beat up (thanks to me, myself and I).
Like I said, it’s a terrible habit.
This week I will be facing a hard thing that I have run from for a long long time. I have gone through periods where I would face it in small doses, or halfway do it. I have also gone through periods of complete denial and running away from it. It’s been a roller coaster of sorts this one.
But tomorrow will begin a new chapter that will entail me finally fully facing this one. No more running. No more half way, kind of, sort of.
I’m wondering if you’ve ever been there too, or if you are right now. If so, this one is for both of us …
When Jesus was asked to do the hardest thing that has ever been asked of anyone and die for all humanity’s sin He struggled with it.
Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” (Matthew 26:38)
He even asked the Father if there was another way possible.
Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.” (Matthew 26:39)
There is a thin line between struggling and disobeying, a line that Jesus most certainly did not cross. With the help of the Holy Spirit as our guide we too can find that balance of coming to Jesus with our struggle and wrestling when faced with the hard stuff and tough choices, but still be obedient to what He has called us to do.
We should also mirror the request He made of His friends.
“Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter. “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” (Matthew 26:40-41)
We need to have some Godly friends who are grounded in the Word that speak encouragement over our life that we can turn to in all times, but especially the hard ones. That we can come to and ask them to pray with you on something and know that they’re going to follow through on that. The power of prayer is so beyond what our futile minds can begin to comprehend. If Jesus, who had all authority and power needed to pray and asked His friends to pray, how much more should we?
What did Jesus finally do after the struggling and the praying? He obeyed.
He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.” (Matthew 26:42)
When we’ve come before Him in all humility and struggling and tears and wrestling, and we’ve asked those around us to pray, and we still sense God leading us to this hard thing we step forward.
One step at a time.
We fix our eyes on Jesus and not the hard stuff. We believe Him to do what only He can do. We live in the space where His faithfulness absolutely HAS to show up for us, or we plain won’t make it.
And we do the hard stuff.